Dirty Dancing has always had a special place in my heart. From the moment my mother showed me the film, I was in love with Johnny Castle. In all reality, I was in love with Patrick Swayze. I immediately related to Baby’s desire to be with him. Yes, he was handsome, but she ended up seeing a side of Johnny that no one else was ever privy to. Of course, this is also a side that I’m not sure Johnny let many people in on either. And just when he thought he had Baby pegged she said what has become my favorite movie quote of all time.
Day 14: Your favorite quote from any movie – “Me? I’m scared of everything. I’m scared of what I saw, I’m scared of what I did, of who I am, and most of all I’m scared of walking out of this room and never feeling the rest of my whole life the way I feel when I’m with you.” – Baby
This first time I watched this movie I was extremely young. Too young to truly understand the weight of her words, but I understood her desire not to want to let go of that feeling. Granted, my happiness high was never from a man at that young, but there were other ways children gained that high. We always never wanted to let go of that feeling. We didn’t want to leave the park. We wanted to ride that roller coaster one more time, because that feeling we got in our stomach while going down a hill was too good to let go. We wanted that extra scoop of homemade ice cream nanny made. Those of course were nothing in comparison to that feeling when we began to grow.
During my teenage years I was determined I was in love with one of my best friends. I thought it was real love, but I know looking back that was not the case. After all, most true love do not come from those we date in middle school. Or in my case ones we don’t end up going to the dance with and makes us cry in the bathroom. Did I mention my eighth grade dance sucked? That was kind of the moment I knew I was no longer scared of walking out of his room or away from him. He no longer evoked that feeling in me and that was okay. I think that’s the one thing about that quote that we are not told. Sometimes it’s okay because that feeling was never meant to last the rest of our lives.
It wasn’t until I was in college though and my father lost his job that this quote made me cry. For some reason it hit me like a ton of bricks. I could not help but feel that I was scared the leave my room because my room was this haven. I had created this haven my entire life and found myself in fear of losing that haven. What would I do if we had to move into another home? What if him losing his job would create this downhill aftershock that completely ruined the home he had worked so hard to build from even before I was born? The what ifs scared me. Not knowing if I would ever feel the same way elsewhere was even more frightening.
Ultimately, this quote is what I want to feel one day in the way it was strictly meant to be in the film. Not in the ways I have taken it over the years, but because some guy enters my life and he is too good to be true but real. I know that people insist if something is too good to be true it eventually ends. I don’t want to believe that in this case. I want to believe that somehow Baby and Johnny either worked it out and were together forever. Why? Because movie magic has dictated to me that it should be so of course. But if for whatever reason this did not happen, or Johnny ended up passing away far too young, I want to believe that Baby found that happiness again even though she was scared of never feeling the same again. She had to find it again because we must find happiness even when we’re too afraid to step out of our comfort zones to find it.