I haven’t felt all that great lately, thus the lack of posts. Trust me when I say that I will be be back to what I deem normal posting soon rather than later. By seeing as tomorrow is Thanksgiving I wanted to write up a little something. I do this of course as I watch one of my holiday staples which is A Charlie Brown Thanksgiving. I have yet to watch a single Christmas film, which will more than likely start tomorrow and I plan on watching as many Friends Thanksgiving episodes as I can sit up and watch tonight. The only thing Christmas related I have done is bring part of my office decorations to work. I’m also debating on buying a santa hat for Halloween Groot that has turned into Thanksgiving Groot. Groot is never leaving the office! Okay fine, I will remove him after Christmas begrudgingly.
There is a small part of me that is telling me to read, but I might save that for tomorrow afternoon on the way to my aunt’s house for dinner. And I know that we don’t always agree with our family, or get along with them, but at the end of day they are family. I had a talk with a friend recently about this because she debated on whether or not she should go to her family gathering or not. She decided ultimately to go because family is family. I think the more I thought about her not going the more I realized how much my own traditions have changed and morphed over the years. This hasn’t always been a bad thing, but I can remember a lot more people attending Thanksgiving dinner than I will see tomorrow.
Some of that is due to loved ones passing. Some is due to others having their own families and making other plans. But sometimes I wonder what truly makes a person decide not to partake in traditions. People of course have their reasons, but one day I know these traditions will be long gone. Eventually I will have to create my own because these people I still continue to cherish this time of year won’t always be here. I know that’s a morbid thought, but I think that is what makes me cling so much to my traditions now. It’s why I try to reach out as much as possible even though sometimes I just plan suck at it. I want people to know that I care as much as I possibly can.
All of this of course has me thinking of what I wish for this holiday season. And to be honest, most of what I wish for isn’t what I will attain on Black Friday. Yeah there are good deals to be had by all, but what I really wish for is that everyone gets to spend time with their loved ones. I wish that we overcome that which isn’t toxic in our lives before missing out on opportunities with others we might regret later. I wish for a better world. I wish for people to start loving one another as much as they appear to love themselves at times.
And even though I think there are so many more things I could wish for I am thankful for those in my life. I’m thankful for my life even though at times I struggle. I know social media doesn’t always show our struggles, but that is what makes the special times I do decide to share on there even better. While I’d rather share the good than the bad, I’m thankful for those of you who have endured the bad with me. I’m thankful for my father, my fur babies, my family, those I’ve loved and loss, everyone. I’m thankful for all of you. I’m thankful for the good and the bad because they’ve shaped me to want to do better and be the best I can be. And while it might take awhile to get to where I want to be I see that end in sight. I see a life I want to live and that’s something to be beyond grateful for at the end of the day.